Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Ohmahgah I'm Going to Quote Cher

Yesterday was poised to be the worst day ever. 

Monday.  Meh.
Snow.  Meh.
SPRING? AHEAD?!  Meh and meh.
SSG had run out of coffee.  (Let SSG tell you, MEH doesn't even begin to cover THAT.)

But SSG WAS NOT having it.  She was done with the meh and the ick and the blah.

The last two ... three ... four weeks have been foggy.  Like I'm here, but I'm not HERE.  I just kind of felt like I was going through the motions.  Distracted.  Cluttered.  Way too serious.  And wanting to feel better.  But none of my old tricks were working.

No amount of Food Network in jammies, magazine reading in bed, writing or chocolate chip cookies were making it better.  

So I just started cleaning.  

I figured if I was going to be meh I might as well have something to show for it.

I took everything out of my closets and drawers.  I vacuumed and dusted.  Washed and ironed.  Bagged up clothes that I no longer wanted and sent them Salvation Army's way.  I scrubbed showers and floors.  Wiped out drawers and cleaned off mirrors.  Changed my bedding and dropped off my taxes.  Pro. Duc. Tive.  Peeps.  

And I was still feeling ... meh.

I was bundling up yesterday morning for my train ride and going through the Monday motions of how I wished it was still the weekend, how desperately I wanted to not spring forward but to fall back, fall back and keep falling back until it was Saturday morning again.  And then I literally stopped mid step.

And told myself ...

SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  


I kind of giggled a little.  And reminded myself there are a TON of things that are out of my control right now.  But the things that are in my control?  I'm going to pay attention to and enjoy them for everything they are.  Right now.  Even in the smallest, quietest moments.

Like hearing the wet snow flakes tap against my umbrella.
The warmth of the train and the burst of cool air each time the doors opened.
The feel of cracking open a new library book.
Breaking my routine and going to a different coffee shop.
Smiling and saying 'good morning' to those I don't know.
And really listening to those I do.

It was amazing to feel my shoulders relax, my smile grow bigger when cracking jokes with my work peeps again and maybe, just maybe, SSG is coming back around.

Because guess who made his way over to introduce himself yesterday folks?  None other than Starey Guy.  


Living on the Spit said...

We all go through times like that...it is usally when things are about to change big time...hang in there baby girl.

Really? Starey guy...that is a good sign.

The Incredible Woody said...

Sounds like you need a little SUNSHINE!

PS - You can head on over to my house next to clean.

ab said...

I have been feeling the exact same way for the last few months. I went through a health scare, running injury, a wicked cold, and my dog had surgery. I was really down on Sunday and decided the exact same thing: Snap Out Of It!!! Yesterday I got myself outside and went on a long walk, just me and the iPod. I didn't bring a hat or umbrella and got rained/snowed/hailed on, and I was happier than I've been in weeks.

belladella said...

He did??????

I've been feeling the same sort of way too. Spring is waking me up and snapping me out of it. I love it. I love the warm and extra hour- I will send some your way.